Chapter 37 - "In Your Room" - 22nd October 2012.

Rocky is settling into his new home with me, now that we've finally moved in together. Whilst in the midst of moving some furniture however, we receive a few unexpected visitors, including someone from my fella's past, who appears VERY taken with my Little Mermaid gal-pal ! Oooh, I wonder ? ...

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Chapter 37 - "In Your Room".

Rocky and I are still getting used to living together, I have to admit, it was a rather curious adjustment to start with, but I am glad to have him around all the same, somehow it feels as though we are even more officially a couple now. It’s nice to think that our relationship has finally progressed beyond just the dating phase, and now that we have moved in together, have taken the first step towards a proper level of commitment to one another.

I was so happy about my new relationship situation, we had told all our doll friends about the exciting news over the weekend. I think at first when we started to say to them that we had news, they thought we were going to announce that we were engaged, as each and every one of them had a slight look of disappointment on their faces when Rocky and I said we had finally moved in together, but luckily that was only ever so brief before they congratulated us. I think they were all ever so relieved that we had sorted out our little problem from Friday, and were pleasantly surprised to see that despite our huge row, we had come out of it stronger than ever.

Anyway, we decided it was time to put our room back to rights from my girly slumber party on Friday … awww ‘our’ room, I still cant quite get used to saying that, it makes me smile so much every time I think about it. Getting back on topic though, normally I would have asked Holly to move the furniture around for me, as lets face it, compared to me, she is HUGE and much stronger, so moving the sofa back to its spot on the dressing table would be no effort at all for her.

Rocky however had a different idea, he insisted that now this was ‘his’ home too he would sort it himself, I tried to talk him out of it, but well, you know what men can be like once they get an idea in their heads ! … Even worse though, was that he insisted he could do it all on his own, and would not even let me close to help him, no matter how many times I offered.

“Sweetheart, I can handle this fine … I’m nearly there” he kept telling me. I don’t think he was being entirely truthful though, he had been struggling to try and move it that last little bit for a while now, but seemed determined that he was not going to let it get the better of him, and refused to admit defeat.

“What about if I go and get Rio, or Jackson to help ?” I asked, hoping that perhaps if he would not accept my help, then maybe he would let one of the other guys assist him.

He was groaning a little with the strain of trying to balance and lift the weight of the sofa, as he replied “No, I’ve almost got it, there’s no need to bother them”.

Urrrgh he’s hopeless !! … There was no way he had almost got it, he was just being stubborn … why is it that sometimes guys will never ask for help, no matter how much they are struggling ?

Luckily it was only a few moment later that we received our first unexpected visitor to our new joint home.

“Ella, Rocky … Helloooo” said Serena, cheerfully waving to us as she approached from across the room, she then sounded quite amused as she enquired “What on earth are you two up to, up there ?”.

I was so pleased that someone else had joined us, maybe she could help me try to knock some sense into my Dearest Love.

“Ohh Serena, I’m soooo glad to see you” I replied excitedly, I nearly blurted out and asked if she would help me tell Rocky that he was being a daft plonker here, but thought that may not have been the best way to get him to co-operate, so instead continued saying “come on up and join us …. PLEASE !”.

She instantly seemed to get the idea that I needed a hand, and so dropped what she was carrying and climbed up onto the dressing table chair.

Rocky just mumbled a little “Hey Serena” greeting, whilst still wresting with his unachievable task.

I didn’t really want to say anything out loud with my Dearest standing behind me, so instead just inaudibly mouthed “Help!!” to Serena, whilst slightly gesturing my head in Rocky direction, in the hopes that would give her an idea of what I was up against.

Serena on the other hand, had no bones about being blunt and to the point with him, as she said whilst nearing the top “Rocky what on earth are you doing, struggling with that on your own ?”

He didn’t appear at all impressed by her question, and groaned a little, almost as if he was pretending that he hadn’t heard her.

As soon as she had reached the seat of the chair though, Serena seemed to take charge declaring “Right then, Ella you take that bit, I’ll go over here and we’ll get this thing moving shall we ! …. Oh and Rocky, if you say one word about being fine without any help you’ll regret it !!”.

She was so firey and forceful in the way she spoke, I would have been far too scared of upsetting him, or hurting his feelings, if I had talked to him in such a way. Perhaps its because Serena doesn’t care about Rocky in the same kind of deep and passionate way, that she was able to speak to him so, although I do wonder if she would be any different with someone she herself loved, knowing her as I do, probably not !! But I guess that’s what was needed in this instance, as Rocky finally gave in saying “Oh go on then !” when he reluctantly figured, there was no way he could argue with the two of us about it.

We still weren’t making any particular progress though, and after a while my concentration started to waiver a little, and I began to chat with Serena, I had suddenly realised she was wearing a different dress that I had not seen before ! It was still blue, like the one I had leant her, but much more simple and practical, which somehow really suited her personality well. She started to tell me a little bit about it, but then Rocky began to chuckle and roll his eyes a tad, he seemed a touch amused that we were getting distracted by girly chat at a time like this.

More help came along however, in a rather unexpected form, when a playfully sounding voice from below shouted up teasingly.

“Hey Rocky … Blimey, they told me you were living up here in the ‘pink’ room, but I didn’t quite believe it, until I saw it with my own eyes !”.

The three of us instantly turned to see who was talking in such a familiar and sarcastic tone to my Dearest, and what we saw was actually rather interesting …

There was a Ken doll waving up at us, but not one that I had even seen before, he was carrying another child doll, and reminded me a little of Heart and his son Petey, but this guy had darker hair and was slightly more handsome, not nearly as gorgeous as my Rocky of course, but still not too shabby even if I do say so myself … but wait a minute, are my eyes deceiving me or, is he wearing Jackson’s old suit ?!

Serena and I just stared awkwardly, but as usual it was clear Rocky knew the guy, he was still sounding strained from lifting though, as he replied “Corey mate, nice to see you’ve finally been set free !”.

Ah Corey, of course I should have known, you may remember Rocky had enquired about a doll of that name when we had met the Heart family last week. At the time it was all rather cryptic, but I had asked Rocky more about it once we were alone later that day … and this is what I found out …

You see, Corey is Heart’s brother, he’s another Heart family Ken doll, and well, as you could tell from the previous picture etc, he has a son of his own. There is however much more to his story than that though … just like Heart, Corey had a wife and she was called Maddy, in fact his wife was Missy’s sister. But sadly, like many of Holly’s childhood Barbie dolls, Maddy broke beyond repair and went to the big rubbish dump in the sky, making him a Widower ! … I know its all so sad, worse than that though, he and Maddy had a newborn baby daughter when they were new, but she was now missing, and Holly has not managed to find her yet !! It wasn’t at all clear if she would ever turn up again either. So the poor guy has to cope with the loss of his wife, the potential that he may never see his tiny baby girl again, and all whilst dealing with being a single parent !! … Oh doesn’t it make your heart just ache ?!

Anyway, he appears surprisingly upbeat considering his situation, but then it had been several decades since the loss of his wife, so its not like he hadn’t had time to try and come to terms with it, but even so, I still was amazed how well he seemed to manage … I think these Heart family dolls must be made of sterner stuff than us Disney girls, well me in particular I guess, as honestly, from what I have seen so far, they are amazing at coping with anything life throws at them !

By now Corey had climbed up to join us on the dressing table chair. Rocky just acted as though there was nothing unusual about what we were up to, almost ignoring it, as he proudly introduced me as his girlfriend.

I have to say, it was quite curious, the look of surprise across Corey’s face when Rocky mentioned he had a girlfriend, almost as though it was something unexpected and out of the blue. I guess in a way, it was nice to know that I was something special, and that girlfriends had not been a dime a dozen in his previous life … although I guess really even if they had, would it really have mattered ? If in the end he was choosing to be with me, above every other doll he had ever encountered that still would mean I was ever so special to him.

When Rocky introduced Serena she greeted him enthusiastically, but not being one to beat about the bush, and seeing how the addition of another strong guy doll could be an advantage here, she just boldly came out and asked.

“I don’t suppose you’d mind helping us would you ?”.

Corey smiled in ever such an amused way at Serena’s question, it almost reminded me of the way Rocky looks at me when I say something that he’s really not expecting. It was a look that said, he was not only finding her comical, but had an ever so slight hint of enthralled charm about her … how very strange ?!

Anyway Corey replied “Oh, of course, I’d be happy to help” he then looked a little sheepish, as though he didn’t quite know how to say what was coming next “well, that is if perhaps one of you ladies would mind …”

He never finished what he was saying, as by now it had dawned on us, oh how daft, of course someone was going to have to take his son, how thoughtless that we hadn’t offered. I felt a little bit guilty, and was about to say something, but never got the chance …

Out of know where, Serena just stepped forward and took the child into her arms. I was so shocked, not only by her interest, but how at ease she appeared, there was no sign of awkwardness, or not knowing how to hold the little guy, like I had found when I had little Pammy. In fact, if I hadn’t known better, I could have sworn she knew what she was doing, as she affectionately held him close.

Corey was removing his jacket, but also keeping a close eye on my firey friend and his son, as Serena asked him “So what’s this little Cutie Pie’s name ?”

He really appeared pleased at the very natural and obvious enthusiasm she had for his child, as he replied “Oh, its Paul … but we usually just call him Paulie”.

Another extended cutesy nickname for one of the Heart family children, I started to wonder though, had they named their children themselves ? or had Holly ? … Hmmm ?

Serena really looked so very taken with the little guy, I was rather shocked by it, she had never really come across as the motherly type to me, and always seemed more the tough and practical sort. But perhaps they were skills that were perfect for child care ? … Or more likely, I had just discovered what her soft gooey weak spot actually was !

“Ohhhh aren’t you just the most adorable sight I’ve ever seen ?!” she exclaimed full of excitement, as she gazed down at the bundle of joy in her arms.

I was ever so surprised though, when Corey rather passionately replied “I’ll say !!”. Somehow I get the impression, from the direction he was looking at the time, that his comment was more aimed at my friend than little Paulie.

Rocky and I could not take our eyes off the three of them, and I had to try ever so hard not to giggle, when it dawned on me that I may have actually found a very good match for my self assured gal-pal. Although from the looks of things, so far she was much more taken with the son, and hadn’t even given his father a second thought !

Anyway, Rocky and Corey insisted that they could handle the furniture moving without my help, and to be honest, I think I would have just gotten in the way anyway. So I just stepped aside and let them get on with it. I was just grateful there was finally someone here who Rocky would let assist him, as I had started to worry earlier that all that heaving on his own could strain or break one of his limb joints.

Whilst the guys just got on with it, Serena and I sat ourselves down on the edge of the dressing table chair to have a little chat. I was actually rather curious to find out what Serena thought of the funny little guy she was watching over, and was also interested to see how he would behave, compared to the wriggly squirmyness I had found with his cousins. I have to say though, that so far Paulie seemed a much calmer little chap, and happily say relatively still in my friends lap.

As Serena once again held Paulie in her arms, I could instantly see she was starting to fall for the little guy, there was no question in my mind that she was obviously destined to be a mother one day herself, as she gazed down at him so adoringly. I started to wonder if that was a bad sign for me, that I had not taken to children in such an instant way ? Perhaps it means that kids are not for me ? But then again, everyone’s different, and maybe not every future parent takes to the idea like a duck to water from the beginning ?

I was ever so curious, so in the end had to ask her “You seem very good with kids Serena, do you think you will want children of your own one day ?”

Serena laughed quite heartily at my question, I wondered if she would mind me asking such a personal question, but it honestly didn’t appear to bother her at all, as she replied quite plainly “Well I guess I need to find a guy first before that is even an issue, don’t I !?” she then came over a little more serious as she continued “but IF I ever find someone to love, then yes, I guess I would love children … but the reality for us girl dolls is never that simple, is it. There are never enough guy dolls for everyone, so what are the chances of actually meeting someone who is available, who you actually have that kind of special connection with … apart from you and Rocky of course, you are the exception … but unfortunately most of us female dolls aren’t quite as lucky, and will undoubtedly end up old maids !”.

Awww, I felt rather sad when I realised how much she would dearly love a family of her own, but somehow, with how truly gorgeous she is, I doubted that of all the dolls I knew, there was any chance that Serena would turn out to be an old maid ! I was also quite surprised though, as I had never actually noticed before, how few bloke dolls there really were to go round. It made me feel even more privileged and lucky that I had found my Rocky, and how much we truly love and cherish one another.

Trying to lighten the mood, Serena then came over a little playful, and giggled as she commented “Well if nothing else, I guess I can always be a sort-of Auntie to yours and Rocky’s kids, cant I !!”

Oh no, not another person assuming that we will have children ! … why are people saying that to me so often ? I mean, I don’t hear Jem and Rio getting comments about kids, and they have been married forever, and yet Rocky and I aren’t even engaged yet, and people are already planning a family for us … what’s that all about ?! But perhaps it not what it appears, maybe they are just projecting their own unfulfilled desires onto Rocky and I, in the hopes that if they cant have everything they want in life, then perhaps we can, so they can sort of live vicariously though our happy and loving relationship ? So when I think about it, I guess I really cant be cross at them for that.

By now the guys had finally lifted the sofa up onto the dressing table top. Rocky called down to me, rather pleased with himself, he had an almost ‘see, I told you I could do it’ tone to his voice as he proudly asked where I wanted it positioned ?

“Oh errr, anywhere in the middle will be fine thanks my Love” I replied sweetly.

I was so happy for him, after all that struggling he had actually achieved his goal … Phew ! I knew if he hadn’t have managed it, he would have probably ended up a tad sulky, and I wouldn’t have heard the end of it this evening, especially if we had had to resort to asking for Holly’s help and assistance too.

Serena was still far to captivated with her new little friend to really notice much of what was going on though. It seemed like little Paulie had really taken to her too, but then the poor little guy had been missing a mother figure in his life for quite a long time now, so was probably just lapping up all the female attention which may very good friend was lavishing on the little dude.

Rocky and I gazed over rather interestedly, we were both now very aware that Corey was staring down at the pair of them, from the look on his face it was becoming rather obvious that he was starting to get a little smitten by my flame haired companion, and her natural motherly charm.

Serena bounced the baby boy in her arms joyfully and said to him “Look up there Paulie … look its your Daddy, and he’s being all helpful and strong … are you going to wave to Daddy ?” Paulie just giggled contently in her arms, looking ever so happy.

Awwww … She was so adorably cute with him, I could see why Corey couldn’t take his eyes off her, as even beyond her natural stunning good looks, she was so very charming in this sweet almost motherly guise. And yet, even though she came across as being so very in love with this poor motherless child, it was almost as though she hadn’t even taken a moment to notice that there was a VERY available, and quite handsome might I add, guy up there, who from the look on his face at the moment, would have walked over hot coals just for the chance to catch her interest.

Oh Serena, wake up, there is a very good chance that everything you want is looking down at you now, this very moment, and you are far to blind to see him !! … Deary me … although, when I think about it, maybe that’s exactly what I looked like when I first met Rocky ? I mean, he kept grinning at me constantly, as did all the other dolls when we first met, and in the week or so after. Perhaps it was just like with this situation, they could all see we were meant for each other, but just had to wait for me to finally cotton on myself … oh gosh, now seeing what it must have appeared like from the outside, I realise I must have looked like a blind dim-witted fool ! If Rocky looked even half as captivated with me, as Corey does with Serena now, then his feelings and interest should have been obvious to me, even from a mile away … why on earth had I never noticed ? … I know they say love is blind, but really … THAT blind ?!?!

Anyway, whilst the guys got back to work, and shuffled the sofa into its final position for me, I glanced down at the floor and finally remembered the dresses that Serena had been carrying, and left down there when she arrived.

“So what was it you were trying to tell me about dresses earlier ?” I asked enthusiastically.

Serena looked a little lost for a second, but then she appeared to remember, as she replied “Oh yeah, oh I was just returning your lovely blue dress that you leant me”.

“Ah Thanks … but what’s with the pink one ?” I responded rather interestedly as I always love pink dresses ?

“Oh” said Serena sounding a little unsure “well, that’s the other dress that came with this blue one of mine … I don’t really like it, but I guess it will do as a spare! I brought it along to show you, as I know how much you adore clothes”.

I knew that Serena really didn’t like pink, but then I guess if I had bright red hair, I would probably feel the same, but I really didn’t not understand how she could not like that gorgeous gown ? … and then I had a wonderful idea …

“Well if you don’t like it, how about we do a swap ?”.

“Swap?” she questioned curiously.

“Yes” I replied ever so keenly “I love pink dresses, and you like the blue one you borrowed from me, so how about you take mine and I take yours … only if you want to of course ?”.

Serena looked ever so pleased, but also slightly worried as she replied “Oh what a lovely idea Ella … but are you sure ? I mean, it is one of your ‘Cinderella’ dresses after all ?”.

“I have loads of blue dresses” I said insistently “but in all honestly, pink is my favourite colour” I then blushed a little shyly, as I quietly went on “besides Rocky really loves it when I wear pink !”.

She gave me a very sneaky grin, and winked as she told me “Well I guess it would be rude to argue with that one ! … Thank you Ella, as I really don’t think I would have ever worn that pink one anyway, so at least now I will have a spare posh dress for special occasions !”

I have to admit, I was starting to hope she might wear my former blue dress for a date with a certain Ken doll, who wasn’t standing too far away from where we were seated now. But I guess that was jumping ahead a bit, as we still don’t know if Corey will ever ask my friend out, and even if he did, would she want to accept the invitation ? Seeing as they have only just met though, perhaps I should give them a little more time to see what happens on their own. After all it took Rocky a little while to ask me out after we had met didn’t it !

We were starting to wonder what the guys were up to, as it couldn’t possibly have taken them this long just to shuffle a sofa across. But when I looked up, was quite surprised to discover that not only had they finished, but that had made themselves quite at home up there !

I found it ever so odd to see two guys sitting in my spot up there, it was almost surreal. But then I guess when I think about it, its not MY spot anymore is it ? It’s OUR spot, mine and Rocky’s, so if he wanted to invite a friend around, then who am I to stop him. In a way I was very pleased that he was starting to appear more comfortable in his new surroundings, and perhaps having the odd guy visitor up here every now and again, would be just the thing to take the edge off the overly apparent girlyness around him.

I watched closely as the guys talked, I remembered Rocky telling me that Corey had been one of his best mates back in the day, apart from Rio of course, which is why Rocky was so keen to enquire about him when his brother made an unexpected re-appearance. Not that Rocky didn’t get along with Heart too, its just that he an Corey had a closer connection, for whatever reason. Just like I am closer to Jem than Millie, it doesn’t mean I don’t like Millie, its just we all click with certain people better than others don’t we ?!

I felt so warm inside, as I sat there contently watching my Dearest Love catch up with his good friend. I started to get the feeling, I was probably going to end up seeing a fair bit more of Corey in my life from now, which in turn, made me really hope that if he has to end up with one of the female dolls in our group, then I so hoped it would be someone I was close too, just like what Rocky and I have with Jem and Rio. But I guess the poor guy has only just come out of storage, so I should at least give him a little time to adjust before I initiate any kind of matchmaking plans.

Anyway, by now Serena and I thought it was about time we went up and joined the guys. The funny thing was though, they were so engrossed in whatever it was they were discussing, that they didn’t appear to notice our presence, until we were literally right beside them.

“You look nicely at home up here !” I declared ever so playfully to Rocky.

He looked quite amused as he replied “Well, I could live without all the girly pink and clothes, but this sofa is just the best … its worth putting up with the pain of living up here just for that !”

“Oh really ?!” I said sarcastically as I giggled and enquired “So that’s ‘the’ best thing about living with me is it ?”.

Rocky raised one eyebrow, and chuckled a little more as he teased “Well, I guess its not ‘so’ bad spending all this extra time with you as well … but yeah, basically the sofa is the best bit !!”.

“Oi !! … I’ll remember that!” I protested, trying to pretend to feel wounded as I spoke, but honestly couldn’t keep a straight face and ended up laughing.

It was then he came over much more earnest, as he replied “In truth, you know its you, don’t you my Darling ? … I cherish every single moment we spend together”. He then looked ever so sneaky again, as he wiggled his eyebrows playfully and added “I just think we need lots more moments on this lovely soft couch !”.

I was so thrilled he was laughing and joking again, it was a really good sign that he must be feeling more at home up here with me. I never imagined he would settle down in here so well, or so fast in fact. He came across so very content, I started to wish we had moved in together much sooner, seeing how blissfully happy we had now become.

Our attention now turned to our friends alongside us though, Serena was VERY reluctantly returning little Paulie to her father. I could tell by the look on her face that she didn’t really want to give him up, a stark contrast to how keen I had been to return Pammy to her mother I think. Buts its not like Serena could really keep the child, after all, he wasn’t hers was he.

“Thanks for looking after him” said Corey every so gratefully, he had a cute little puppy dog look on his face whilst gazing up at my friend, and a massive telling grin slapped across his cheeks … blimey these Ken dolls really are VERY smiley guys aren’t they.

“It was a pleasure” replied Serena, confidently adding “He’s was good as gold, and I’d happily watch him any time you have the need”.

Corey looked rather touched by the offer, which increased his doe eyed expression ten fold, as he told her “Oh, what a lovely offer Serena, thank you so much”. He then looked slightly shy as he asked “you’ll have to let me know where I can find you in the house, as in where you live ? So I will know where to look for you, should I have the need to take you up on your very generous offer”.

I almost started giggling to myself, and I’m sure Rocky was also, it was soooo obvious his interest in where Serena lived was in no way to do with asking her to babysit. But once again, my very good friend appeared oblivious to her admirers interest, as she answered his question rather plainly and to the point. Honestly, for someone who is usually so astute, she was really blind as a bat with this one, he couldn’t have been more obvious if he had sign written it, and yet still she seemed unaware of the effect she had on him.

It was then that Corey looked a little embarrassed, as a realisation hit him, and he abruptly stood up declaring “Oh I do apologise for my rudeness … here I really should let the lady sit” as he offered up his side on the sofa to my very good friend.

Serena was not particularly bothered about such, almost old fashioned, chivalrous things though, but thanked him, and did seat herself on the arm all the same.

Rocky however was much more mischievous as he said to me “Well my Darling, I guess I should let you have a seat too, shouldn’t I ?”. But instead of getting up, he chuckled playfully, pulling me across onto his lap saying “There you go, how’s that ?”.

I couldn’t help but giggle at the ever so cute, and amusingly impish way he was behaving. I so adored his sense of humour, and the funny little surprises that often came out of these playful moments. This really was my Rocky at his best, the more amusingly he behaved, the happier he was feeling inside. I couldn’t help but let out a huge contented sigh, as I joyfully remained seated on his lap.

Corey chuckled slightly at our affectionately sweet manner, as he jokingly asked Serena “How long have they been together ? … and have they always been this sickeningly sweet ?”.

They knew we could hear them, and I think they were playfully teasing for a reaction from us, but Rocky and I were much to engrossed in each other, we were both still listening in quite keenly though, to the discussion they were having behind us as it continued.

“Well they have been together as long as I have known them” replied Serena before sneakily adding “but normally they are much worse than this !!”.

When they finally realised they were not going to bait us into responding, they actually gave up pretty quickly, and started to chat more normally. Serena was still coming across very interested in Paulie, asking many a question about the little guy. And like any parent, I guess, Corey was keen to respond and told her loads of the funny little traits and stories about his son.

They had been talking for quite a while now, and I think had forgotten we were sat behind them, as neither seemed to take any notice when Rocky and I glanced in their direction to check on them. Unfortunately I couldn’t see Serena’s face, but from what I could tell of Corey’s, he was ever so spellbound by my stunningly gorgeous girl-pal. She seems such a heartbreaker, and yet so unaware of it, that’s both Kirk and Corey now who have come over all smitten with her, as singles guys go, I think there is only Prince Prettyboy remaining, for her to complete the hat trick !! … But somehow I get the feeling she would not quite be refined and Princessy enough for that guy, but you never know, she does seem to have a way with men !

As I turned back to Rocky again I whispered cryptically to him “you don’t think, those two … you know … do you ?”.

He replied just as quietly, as he playfully said “Well, you Disney Princess girls do seem rather irresistibly charming you know ! … Although personally, red-heads have never been to my taste”. I giggled at the intense and loving way he was now looking into my eyes, as he mischievously added “Of course, sometimes it takes a little time for you Princesses to finally come to your senses, and realise what devilishly handsome catches us Ken dolls really are !!”.

He was such a tease, it was clear he wasn’t just referring to Serena’s obliviousness, but also the fact that I had been just as blind to Rocky’s interest in me when we had first met. We giggled between ourselves quietly, and I felt so happy and adored. I tell you, if I could have gone back in time to the very beginning, knowing what I do now, I would probably have jumped on Rocky as soon as I saw him. It will be interesting to see if Serena ends up having the same kind of good fortune in love as I have done, I guess only time will tell though ?

I so hoped that my good friend might have an opportunity to feel even a fraction the kind of deep love, and sweet bliss which Rocky and I now shared. As even though I hadn’t seen it straight away, he truly is the most amazing person I’ve ever met.

Chapter 36 - "Little Lies" - 19th October 2012.

Things go a tad awry during a slumber party style gathering with a few of my gal-pals. Especially after the dressing up fun leads to a rather unwelcome revelation ... It seems a little lie of mine has finally come back to bite me in my little plastic butt !! ... Ooooph !! ...

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Chapter 36 - "Little Lies".

The girls came round to visit me today, we sort of decided to have a bit of an impromptu slumber party, but in truth, I just think I wanted an excuse to be a little lazy and stay in my nightdress for a bit longer.

We had lots to discuss, obviously Blanche and Jackson was a rather hot topic, including the speculation of if, or when they would finally ‘officially’ become a couple. Things must be going quite well with them, as she could not come along for the visit today, she had a scheduled ‘singing lesson’. I think we were all starting to wonder if that was actually a code for ‘date with Jackson’. But I guess, if that excuse made them feel more comfortable, then for the moment we should just go along with it. Although I do wonder if the guys will be so tactful with Jackson ? I mean we all know how sarcastic and implying Rio can be when he wants to.

I also mentioned to them about my encounter with the Hearts, just a couple of days ago. I used the family as sort of an excuse, so I could subtly pick the girls brains for their thoughts on children. They all had varying opinions and views on the pro’s and con’s of doll offspring, which in the end didn’t turn out to be much help, as I ended up almost as confused and conflicted about it as when I had started.

After a while when the conversation was starting to wind down, Jem pointed over at the little box behind me saying teasingly “Oh Ella, not MORE clothes ?”.

We all turned to see what she was looking at, and it was then I remembered “Oh yes, Holly gave them to me yesterday” I replied rather happily.

The girls knew exactly how much I loved clothes, I was always saying to them ‘You can never have too many dresses’. I don’t think any of them have quite the same kind of obsessive passion for fashion as I do, but they were still interested all the same.

Rai then piped up, asking “Well, are you going to show us ?”.

“Oh I don’t want to bore you all with more dresses” I responded a little sheepishly, there was a reason for my reluctance, which will become clear in due course.

The girls didn’t look convinced, and I could tell that they just weren’t going to let it go, so in the end had to comply with their request.

Firstly I held up the gorgeous fur trimmed winter Cinderella gown, this one was probably my favourite, as I loved how soft to the touch the collar felt. The girls seemed quite stunned by it, with Ooohs, Ahhhs, and other generally pleasing compliments.

“That will be prefect for Christmas!” said Jem, still looking ever so impressed by my new dress.

And of course she is right, it will be prefect for the festive time of year, but I honestly don’t know if I will be able to wait that long before putting it to use, I mean its so pretty, and the weather has been getting much chillier recently too … ok, so perhaps that might be a bit of a feeble excuse, but I really cant wait to give it a whirl.

The second dress wasn’t quite as stunning, but I quickly showed them that it was another Cinderella classic style gown, but this one was more silky, had no glitter thankfully, and was absent the meshy part that my original dress has.

Obviously their reaction was not quite as ecstatic as it had been to the first gown, but they thought it was nice all the same, and you all know how I love to have lots of nice clothing options at my disposal … well I have to be prepared for every eventuality don’t I.

It was after I had finished showing the dress, and was implying that’s all there was to see, when eagle eyed Rai spoke up again

“Hey, what about that white one ? … what’s that ? …. And why are you hiding it from us ?”

The girls all looked up interestedly, and laughed at the implying tone in Rai’s voice.

Damn it, I had been found out, you see this was the very reason why I had not wanted to show them the clothes in the first place.

I felt a little embarrassed as I mumbled quietly “It’s a Wedding dress”.

The girls began to giggle even more now, and many a comment was thrown around about, how soon I would be using it ? and, had Rocky popped the question yet ? ... and so on, so forth.

The thing is though, its not like I had bought it, or even asked for Holly to get it for me. It came in a fashion pack doll set that she had purchased, so I was given all the dresses in the set. But I knew how it must look, I could see that at least a few of them assumed that I was already secretly planning a wedding. And the worst part was, I knew nothing I could say would convince them otherwise, so it wasn’t really worth arguing about.

They attempted to convince me to try it on to show them, but I knew that would just make all the teasing worse, so politely declined. But Serena being, well, Serena was having none of it. She stood up and said

“Oh go on Ella … I tell you what if you put yours on, I will put mine on ... how about that ?”.

I guess that sounded a little better, but then Jem went one step further, and suggested that Rai would probably fit into the other wedding gown I already had too, you remember the one I had tried on when picking an outfit for my date with Rocky … yes, that’s the one, when I didn’t realise it was a wedding dress until Jem pointed it out !

Well, it appeared as though the decision had already been made, and perhaps a little fashion show would be fun. So off we went to get changed …

Rai and Serena were having a ball at this game, they playfully hummed the wedding march, as we appeared back from behind the changing area. We must have looked a funny sight, all standing there in silky white bridal gowns. I have to say though, the one Rai was wearing looked amazing, it really suited her, and was great that she could be included in all the fun.

Jem and Crystal were resigned to being spectators though, as not only had we now run clean out of wedding dresses, but their body shapes were rather different to us Disney dolls, so its highly unlikely they could have squeezed into any of them. But they didn’t appear to mind, and looked as though they were having nearly as much fun by watching, as we were.

It was then that Crystal asked me rather bluntly

“So, is this the one then ? … ‘the’ one you think you would wear, if or when my brother finally gets around to asking you ?” she gave me a sneaky wink as she said it.

Oh great, thanks Crystal !! … I pretty much knew they would have all been thinking it, but was hoping they wouldn’t actually ask that question. But just like Rocky, Crystal does like her little teasing games, I knew she wasn’t trying to cause distress, but that didn’t stop me from feeling a little nervous, as now all eyes were on me, awaiting my response.

“Oh errr … I guess we’ll see … if I ever have the need” I replied a touch hesitantly.

Serena then giggled declaring “Well at least you will have lots of choice from the looks of this ! … and you never know, maybe Blanche can make use of one of the others one day too !!”

Ok, so that comment I did find a little amusing. But I started to get the feeling that my girl friends were starting to be as anxious, and curious, about when Rocky was going to pop the question, as I was. Yes, well that could make life … interesting, oh well, I guess they mean well. And in truth, it is rather sweet that they are all so invested in my love life … although, it does feel more pressured with the weight of ‘their’ expectations piling on top of my own now.

Before any more teasing comments, or probing questions could be asked, we all turned upon hearing a noise … it sounded like a voice … oh, has someone come to join us ? … oh god ! I know that voice !!! …….

It was then that Rocky appeared from around the corner! He stopped in his tracks as soon as he caught sight of us, but then I’m not surprised, I mean there were three of us stood there in wedding dresses, but it must have been even more shocking for him when he saw that one of them was his own girlfriend! He looked a tad amused by our appearance, but smiled politely all the same, as he exclaimed

“Oh, what do we have here then !? … am I interrupting something important Ladies ?”.

From the look on his face, I knew he was just about start laughing … great, that’s just perfect … oh dear.

I couldn’t even manage to speak, I was so startled and embarrassed that ‘he’ was standing there, when I was dressed like this … kill me, just kill me now … oh god this was THE most embarrassing thing that could possibly have happened in this moment ! Serena and Rai were instantly aware of my distress and predicament though, and so sort of scooted round in front of me to help hide what I was wearing in a little. But there was no hiding this, I was wearing a wedding gown for god sake, what made it all the worse was the fact that I wasn’t even engaged, or getting married any time soon. I started to wish the ground would just swallow me up, so I wouldn’t have to try and explain away my current unusual attire.

As Rocky got closer I felt more and more panicked, however Crystal tried to come to my rescue saying “Is there something we can help you with Bruth?”

She was trying ever so hard not to laugh at the whole situation, and I could tell that Rocky was finding it just as amusing.

I felt so trapped in this ridiculous mess, I started to hope and pray for something, anything, to get the subject off this wedding dress. But they always say be careful what you wish for, and I was just about to find out why …

It appeared that Anthony had now decided to join us, oh wonderful, another person to witness this utter humiliation of mine. Everyone looked rather curious about his presence, and when I think about it, it was rather odd, as I am not sure he had ever been up here before. I mean, Rocky I could understand, it was pretty obvious he was looking for me, but why was Prince Prettyboy in my room ? …. And why oh why, now of all times ?

Anthony looked almost more shocked than Rocky had been, by my present state of dress, and it didn’t take him long to comment

“Ella my dear, what a simply divine gown” he said, appearing like he was rather taken by the sight of me. He then came over rather inquisitive, as he asked THE worst possible question which could ever have left his lips

“Has HE proposed to you also ?”.

Oh my god !!! … I cannot believe he just said that. For the split second I had to take it all in, my mind raced, I knew exactly what was coming next, and it wasn’t going to be pretty.

And just like that, all hell broke loose ! ….

No sooner than Anthony had finished talking, Rocky was all up in his face about the implications of his question.

“Proposed !?! … ALSO ?!!” he declared in total shock and disbelief. But he didn’t exactly give Anthony any time to answer, as he went on

“YOU … proposed … to MY girlfriend ?!!?”

Everyone just watched in shock, as up until now, no-one had known about Prince Prettyboy’s marital intentions towards me, well apart from the two of us that is. So in some ways, they were all as surprised about it as Rocky was.

Anthony didn’t appear the least bit worried by Rocky’s forceful reaction to the realisation of what he had asked me though. In fact, he also didn’t look at all sorry for his actions either, as he calmly replied

“Why, of course” like it was just a matter of fact.

Rocky turned to me looking furious, but mostly ever so wounded, as he timidly enquired

“Ella, is this true ?”.

I could see Prince Prettyboy was looking a little too pleased with himself for my liking. I started to wonder if he had done this on purpose ? I had an inkling that he was keen to drive a wedge between Rocky and I, and from the look on Rocky’s face at the moment, there was a very good chance he had finally managed it !

I didn’t really get a chance to respond, as Jem and Crystal instantly stood up to leave, they beckoned Serena and Rai to come along. I think they all knew what was about to go down, it was not going to be pretty, and the last thing Rocky and I needed was an audience to contend with on top of everything else. In a way, I was grateful to them all for trying to spare us the extra discomfort, but also felt a bit concerned at how thing might unfold once they had left ?!

Jem, Rai, and Serena gave me one last sympathetic look of encouragement and support, before Crystal told them they really had to leave. I could tell how worried they all were, Crystal especially, after all it was her own brother, and someone she considered like a sister who were involved here. I don’t think she could bare to look at Rocky and I, for fear about what was going to happen. And I must admit, things were not looking good from where I was standing either.

As I watched them leave I felt utterly alone, I had no-one left in my corner, and knew I was about to face the wrath and consequences of my lie. I felt a wave of despair wash over me, as they finally left my sight I knew everything was about to explode.

Now it was just the three of us, Rocky had not let Anthony leave, I think he wanted more of an explanation, and as he was half of the parties involved here, saw it as the quickest way to get to the bottom of things. It was a little sadly ironic that I was standing there in a wedding dress, whilst about to face an inquisition about a proposal. But I was far too worried at the time to find it funny.

Rocky stared at me intently as he said “Ella, I asked you a question … is this true ?” he sounded so disappointed in me as he spoke.

I was so ashamed of myself, I couldn’t bear to look him in the eye as I mumbled “yes” ever so quietly in return.

I could tell his demeanour was getting a little more irate, as he sighed anxiously at my reply. He was trying ever so hard to remain calm as he continued to ask “So when did all this happen then ?”

“When we came back from Disneyland” I whispered, I was starting to feel tears welling in the corners of my eyes. It took every ounce of strength I had, to fight back the urge to blubber, as I added “just after I introduced Serena, Rai and Blanche to everyone”.

Another disappointed sigh from Rocky was all the response I got.

He now appeared to turn his attention to Anthony, who up until now had been watching everything keenly, I knew he was hoping to see signs of discord between Rocky and I, and I was rather fearful of how this discussion between the two of them would go.

“And what did she reply, to this ever so inappropriate question of yours ?” Rocky pressed Anthony for a response, and I just had a feeling that he was going to find some way to come out with something which would make things even worse.

Prince Prettyboy unfortunately did not disappoint, and had a rather almost sly look on his face as he told Rocky “Well actually Ella didn’t finish giving me her response” he then grinned in a somewhat implying way, as he went on “however, we were rather ‘rudely’ interrupted by SOMEONE at the time !”.

Oh hell, he had to have a dig at Rocky didn’t he, this was not going to be good …

I watched in horror as things rapidly escalated, Rocky’s temper had now hit the boil as he began to angrily retaliate “RUDE ?? … Rude ? … I’ll tell you what’s rude, mate, and that’s any bloke who finds it remotely appropriate to propose to another man’s girlfriend”.

“A little unsure of her unwavering affection are we ?” replied Anthony, his tone was so very sarcastic and condescending as he went on “Ella deserved to know from the very beginning, that I have nothing but HONORABLE, respectable, intentions of matrimony towards her. She is an amazing girl, but perhaps, only someone with an honest motive can appreciate how she should be treated ! … I am in no way the sort of doll who would lead her on and cast her aside once I had finished amusing myself with her … I Sir, am a Gentleman !”.

Rocky’s face tightened in anger, I could see how hard he clenched his jaw as he stood there listening to Prince Prettyboy’s attacking comments. But there was no way he was going to lie there and take being talked to in that way. He tried ever so hard to compose himself but still sounded so strained as he said

“It takes more than just a fancy suit, posh voice and flimsy fake royal title to be a gentleman … Mate … and despite what you might think, I have treated Ella with nothing but respect and dignity. I am fully aware of what a wonderful doll she is, and am in a much better position than you are, to know who she is as a person … you know nothing about her … do you know her favourite colour ? What music inspires her, or films she likes to watch ? Did you realise she likes cars and can drive ? Have you even noticed the adorable way she gets tongue tied under pressure, but then when she finally finds her voice ends up jabbering on non-stop, in a sweet almost incoherent manner? Do you know how to makes her laugh when she’s feeling sad or nervous ? … Do you even know anything about HER at all as an individual, beyond the fact that she’s a beautiful Cinderella doll ?”. Rocky was now the one with the sly look on his face, as he finished off by adding “No, I didn’t think so !”.

I was so in awe of Rocky’s passionate declaration, he clearly knows me ever so well, and that was a HUGE advantage in this little game of wits they were playing. His words were quite on the ball though, I mean Anthony has never bothered to try and talk to me, or get to know me, so it was rather clear his interest in me was purely down to what I was, rather than who I am inside.

Prince Prettyboy was never going to give up THAT easily though, I think we all know that, as he politely decided to point out

“And yet despite all of that, Ella still has never actually refused the offer of my hand … maybe deep down she likes the idea of being involved with someone honest and respectable, who can give her everything she deserves and desires … perhaps she would prefer the prestige and position of status, that naturally comes from being the wife of Prince. Compared to the shame and squalor, of demeaning herself to be the unsanctified partner of a lowly mechanic, who is quite plainly, far too long in the tooth for her to begin with !”.

Ooooh that was rather harsh, I could tell instantly how Anthony’s dig had cut straight through to Rocky’s heart. But more than that, the comments were totally untrue and unfounded, I didn’t have a problem with Rocky being a mechanic, I found his car passion endearing, and it was so sweet how he helped everyone out with their vehicles, meticulously spending hours ensuring they were all up to scratch, he cared about us all so deeply, and was ensuring he did everything in his powers to keep us all safe where the cars and bike were concerned. It was in no way lowly or demeaning, and in my opinion was much more respectable that he was doing something useful with his time, compared to all the boring useless pomp and circumstance surrounding a rather dull and snobbish royal life. But does Rocky know that’s how I feel ? … that’s the big question on my mind ?

Rocky of course, could not resist responding to Anthony attacking statements, and to be honest I am not at all surprised, so far Prince Prettyboy had called him dishonest, disrespectful, lowly, and old, whilst also implying he was ungentlmanly and calling his honour into question, particularly with regards to me.

“I think you’ll find she’s with me” Rocky glared Anthony in the face intently as he spoke, they were now standing so close, the tension built, and I was getting worried where this was all heading ? My dearest then smiled so very sarcastically as he continued

“so we both know all that royal crap doesn’t mean diddly to her … and for the record Mate, I can offer her everything you can … you are a doll remember, you’re not a real Prince, you don’t live in a Castle full of servants, and you have no fortune or anything of real value to speak of. What I can offer her is REAL, not a delusion based on the fantasies of a self-important arrogant little upstart !”.

Anthony took great offence at the attack on his royal status, and things between the two of them fast became more heated, their voices were getting raised and irate as they began to throw more and more scathing insults furiously at one another. I couldn’t believe after all this time, they were STILL fighting over me ! … Was this never going to end ? From the looks of things though, they were really honestly building up to blows … I had to do something to defuse things, and quick … but what ?!

Realising that screaming at the pair of them, like I had done when they had fought like this in the past, would most likely not have had a soothing effect on everyone’s fragile tempers. I decided to try an alternative tactic, as I turned to Rocky, and gently touched his arm to get his attention, I said as softly as I could possibly manage

“Rocky … please stop”.

Both guys instantly halted in their tracks, and looked at me even more surprised than when I had yelled at them. I held Rocky’s hand slightly, also hoping to keep it as far away from Prince Prettyboy as possible. Now I finally had their undivided attention I continued saying to my Dearest Love

“Will you please, just let me handle this one ?”.

They appeared quite captivated by the ever so delicate way in which I had managed to take control of the situation, without the use of a raised voice, or any force. But I thought that a more feminine approach was what was needed here, especially seeing as it was me they were so intently fighting over, so it was about time I spoke up.

I turned to Anthony, hoping that I wouldn’t get too tongue tied, or nervous considering what I was about to tell him, but it had to be said, as he STILL obviously could not see the truth, even when it was standing in front of his own eyes.

“Anthony” I started, trying to be as ladylike and composed as possible as I addressed him “Whilst I am honoured, and thank you for the very kind compliment of the offer of your hand in marriage. I find myself unable to accept … Firstly because I really don’t know you, and its pretty clear you don’t know who I am either, and I have a feeling that I am not the sort of doll who’s funny little quirks and personality traits you would honestly be able to tolerate in you royal life. We don’t have anything in common, and would drive each other mad in time, I’m sure of it”.

I was hoping that by appealing to him in such an honest way might actually get things to sink in, as I continued “But mostly, I find myself unable to accept, because my heart belongs to someone else … it always has, and always will. Rocky is the guy I choose to be with, and I have absolutely no problem with his choice of profession. And despite what you might think I have never felt he has ever treated me with anything but the utmost respect … he is honest and a gentleman. And I am very sorry buy HE is my choice!”.

Rocky now had a HUGE gloating grin on his face as he glared over at Anthony, he seemed ever so pleased in his victory over his rival for my affections. Prince Prettyboy appeared to take the news rather well, but then he could have been hiding it. He nodded in response to imply he had heard and understood, but never uttered even a single word … had the message finally got through ?

I knew there was a LOT more that needed to be discussed about this whole thing between just Rocky and I in private, so I politely asked Anthony to leave. “Of course” he replied, I still couldn’t quite make out what he was feeling though ? Perhaps he is just far too shallow to have any real depths of feeling about anything ? Who knows ? At the time, I was just glad that he had agreed to leave my dearest and I in peace, to sort out everything else.

As Prince Prettyboy turned to go, Rocky looked him in the eyes and said ever so sternly

“I’ll see YOU later !”

God, its like it’s a physical impossibility for these two to drop this silly rivalry, although with how much they disliked one another, I am sure they would find something else to fight over even if it wasn’t me. I was suddenly remembering when Rocky had said that Crystal and I needed our heads banging together, when he thought we were being silly, but honestly that was nothing compared to way these two behaved, I think little Pammy and Petey would have been more civilised and sensible … Urrrgh, Men !!

For a moment I wondered if they were going to start everything back up again, but I was relieved to see that Anthony just smirked, and simply replied

“I look forward to it” as he finally walked away.

Rocky and I stood there in an awkward silence, as Prince Prettyboy continued on his way. I think we were both painfully aware, that was the easy part over with, as now there was going to be much more questioning and explaining to do. The atmosphere was so very tense, it felt as though there was a huge gulf between us, as we patiently waited until we were sure that Anthony had left the room before we could begin …

The first words he spoke to me were so shaming “You lied to me !”.

He sounded so hurt, and I couldn’t bear to see the look of disappointment that was written across his entire face, as he went on

“I asked you specifically at the time, what HE wanted ? … and you told me he JUST wanted to see how you were doing ?!”.

I felt so awful about the pain I had caused him, I knew I should not have lied to him at the time, but thought he would never find out, so didn’t see the harm in it, as I was convinced the truth would make things worse back then. But all it had done was make things even more bad now !!

I wanted to say something to try and explain, but every time I opened my mouth my voice never managed to appear. I must have looked like a goldfish gasping for breath.

Rocky was not at all impressed by my silence, he started to get much more irate, as he demanded

“Well ?? … do you have ‘anything’ to say for yourself ?”.

But I still couldn’t manage to get my voice to co-operate. He wasn’t at all patient though, I could see my reluctance to speak was wearing thin, as he went on

“For god sake Ella … I have put up with a lot from you, and never have I once complained or judged you. Flippin hell, even when you thought I was having an affair, you wouldn’t let me explain. Do you think it was nice for me, knowing that’s what you thought of me ? That you thought I was capable of doing something like that to you !… Oh and lets not forget the fact that when I chased after you, I found you in bloody Prince Prettyboys arms !! … did I say a word ? .. No … but how do you think that made me feel ?”.

Everything he had said was utterly true, he had always been so supportive and accepting of me, and my random flighty behaviour, but I had never once stopped to consider what he has had to endure to be with me. This was all so very horribly real, I almost wanted to run away, but I didn’t, I owed Rocky at least that.

But still he had not finished his little eye opening rant “And now I find out that HE proposed to you, and not only did you not tell me about it … but you lied to me ! ……. For god sake Ella, will you please just say something !!!”.

I knew that I could not put it off any longer, he wasn’t going to leave it alone until I had explained my rather thoughtless actions, so finally piped up, trying to sound sweet in the hope it would help re-enforce the justification for my behaviour.

“I’m sorry I lied … really I am … I wasn’t trying to hurt you, I thought I was protecting you. I didn’t want to see you get all upset over it, and end up fighting with Anthony. Obviously I was wrong, but I really did it out of love … surely that must count for something ?”.

Rocky looked at me ever so seriously as he replied “Ella, you are standing here in a Wedding dress, and I have just found out that another man had proposed to you, but you didn’t refuse him straight away, and you also kept it all a secret from me … how do you think that looks ? … Really ? … because from where I am standing, it seems rather damning to me !”.

Oh gosh, with everything going on I had almost forgotten my ridiculous attire. It was clear that my present state of dress was adding extra tension to the situation, but its not like I could just nip off and change when we were right in the middle of heated discussion.

“But I did tell him no, just now, I didn’t have a chance to before as you came along before I had finished my refusal … I thought when he saw we were back together he would have realised that it was a no! … how was I to know he hadn’t got the hint ?”.

I was nervously playing with the collar of Rocky’s shirt as I spoke to him. But I don’t think my feeble excuse had done the trick, in some ways he looked more miffed at me than ever.

It was as though he now couldn’t bear the sight of me as he looked away, I couldn’t believe how one little lie had caused all this awful pain and anguish, and most of all upset between us. But I guess, it wasn’t a little lie was it, that was the point, it was a flippin huge one. It was then that I started to worry, what if there is nothing I can say or do to make all this right again ?

He still didn’t want to look my way as he said “That still doesn’t explain WHY you never told me ? Even afterwards you could have, and should have, said something about it”.

I softly caressed his cheek as I tentatively tried to apologise once more

“I know, and I am so sorry … I wish I could go back and change things, but I cant”.

I really couldn’t stand him looking away from me in such a confused and worried manner, so I gently tried to ease his face back towards mine as I said

“Rocky, please look at me ? … My Love, I never ever seriously considered accepting him, not even for a micro-second … my heart has and always will, belong to you … so what does it matter if another guy makes an unwanted and unwelcome proposal ?”.

It was then Rocky finally turned his head towards mine again, I will never forget the look on his face, he was so deeply tormented as he responded.

“Ella, I would have most likely found it funny, after I got over the initial shock … if only you had enough faith in me to trust I could have handled it … but my Darling, YOU have made this a big deal, because you purposefully kept it from me … if I hadn’t have found out so publicly today, would you have ever told me about it ? I doubt it, and why is that ? … I will always wonder if there was a small part of you that considered it, otherwise I just don’t understand why you couldn’t just tell me about it in the beginning ? … How am I ever supposed to trust you are being honest with me in future, after this ?”.

“But Rocky …” I tried to reply, but was cut off before I could finish.

“No buts” he said, sounding rather insistent “No matter how much we love each other, If we don’t have trust between us, then we don’t have anything !”.

I couldn’t quite take in what he had just said, was he trying to break-up with me ? Had I well and truly ruined everything between us for good ? Oh my word is he leaving ? ….

He turned away and took a few steps before stopping, I was so shocked by what was happening, I couldn’t quite believe my eyes. Oh my god !!! … this is real, he’s about to leave me …

“Rocky … wait … please !!” I pleaded, feeling ever so helpless and afraid.

The emotion of everything had built up way too much though, and I couldn’t hold it in any longer, the tears just started to flow, as I sobbed uncontrollably in despair.

“p-please d-d-don’t go … I … I’m so s-sorry” I blubbed, fearing that it was all to late to be fixed though.

Rocky instantly turned to me, and sighed sympathetically at the pitiful sight before him, it was pretty apparent how distraught I had now become, I was in a right awful state. I felt as though my whole life was falling apart right before my eyes, and there was nothing I could do about it.

“Oh, come here Sweetheart!” he declared in a slightly reluctant but tender tone.

I don’t think he could bear to watch me cry any longer, and so gently took me in his arms, resting my head on his shoulder for comfort. He then sighed once more, before adding

“I’m not going anywhere … its just a fight, that’s all … come on, shhhh everything will be fine, I’m sure we’ll work it out”.

He gently rubbed my arm affectionately, and I started to feel a little less miserable when it finally sank in that he wasn’t breaking up with me after all.

I was still sniffling on his shoulder, as I said to him “I’m so sorry, I really didn’t mean to hurt you … I … I … I love you!”.

He had an almost undetectable chuckle as he replied “I know … and despite all this I still love you too!” he then let out another big sigh as we stood there quietly.

I was taken a little buy surprise when he stepped back a little, and took me by the shoulders, as he stated rather plainly

“But Sweetheart, you MUST promise me this will be the last time you ever ever lie to me about anything !?”.

It sounded like a reasonable enough request, especially considering, after what had just happened here, and how very close we had almost come to splitting up, I was certainly in no hurry to lie to him again. So I nodded my head at him a little shyly.

I don’t think that response was quite good enough for him though, as he now leant down, his face was right up against mine as he looked me straight in the eyes and sounding forceful, but still a touch playful and said

“Come on, I want to hear you say it ?”.

I knew after everything I had done I at least owed him that, so pulled myself together and told him exactly want he wanted to hear

“Yes, I promise I will never ever lie to you again !”.

“No matter what ?” he questioned, he had a slightly teasing look on his face.

“Yes, no matter what” I replied.

I could tell he was studying my face, and reactions very closely as I spoke, I think he wanted to see the truth of it in my eyes, as well as my voice, and he finally seemed satisfied when he softly said

“Thank you”.

He grinned at me again, and nuzzled my nose a little, in a sweet and playful ‘Eskimo Kiss’ sort of way. It made me giggle a bit, and for the first time in ages we were once again both smiling at each other.

I think we were both in need of a big hug after all that upset and drama, I finally started to feel safe, and realised that the worst was now behind us … blimey what a stressful day it has been, but at least now I have seen first hand, that no matter what the consequences at the time, lying never pays off in the long run, it always comes back to bite you in the behind at the most inopportune moment. It’s true what they say ‘Honesty is always the best policy’!

When I started to think about how close I had come to losing Rocky, I couldn’t stand it, I was so so sooooo grateful that he had once again forgiven me. Once more he has just proven what an amazingly patient and tolerant guy he really is … but I really need to try and behave better in future, as hearing all those home truth spelled out so blatantly in front of me earlier, gave me a rather vivid wake up call, as to how much he really has had to put up with !

Well … it wouldn’t have really felt like we had made up, unless we had kissed would it ?!

As our lips met, it felt like the deal was finally sealed on our reconciliation, and it was clear that we were both keen to move on from this whole sorry affair. I just didn’t want to move on from the kissing part just yet though, after all, it was such a relief to feel loved, wanted and cherished again, despite my obvious little personality defects, and my occasional lapse in judgement, that had started this whole problem to begin with.

Rocky was once again gazing at me with total love and affection, and my heart started to feel whole again. It was then that he gently stroked my hair, and started to play with the veil that was still suck to my head, he looked up and enquired

“So what was all ‘this’ about then ?”.

Oh lord, I had forgotten I was still dressed like a complete plonker throughout this whole mess. I reached up and grabbed the veil, finally realising that now was the time to remove it, as I shyly looked down and replied

“Oh that … yes, well … the girls wanted to do a little fashion show, and we sort of got a little carried away … yes”.

I could tell he was taking in every detail of the bridal ensemble, after all its not that often a guy see’s his girlfriend in a wedding get-up before they are even engaged is it. But he didn’t appear at all bothered by it, he looked at me full of adoration, as I fiddled about trying to untie the offending article from my hair. He then finally responded to my rather awkward explanation by simply saying in a loving tone

“I see”.

I had now removed the veil from my head, but that probably didn’t make me look any less like I was wearing a wedding gown. I felt a touch shy, and wondered what on earth he must be thinking about my unusual state of dress ?

Rocky could plainly tell how embarrassed I felt about the whole thing, so tried to ease my feelings a little as he said

“It’s a lovely dress my Darling, truly, it looks sublime on you”.

I smiled and tentatively replied “thank you”

But still was ever so distraught that he had caught me in such a way … mental note, I must be much more careful about what clothes I try on when unexpected visitors can just pop in !

There was a little awkward silence, but then Rocky suggested that we would probably feel more comfortable if we sat down, after all there was a nice little sofa sitting there right behind us.

“Oooh this is rather nice” he declared playfully, as he seated himself alongside me.

He had never tried it out before, probably because he hadn’t really visited me up here that often. But I was pleased that he appeared to like it, and as soon as he put his arm around me, he settled down and began to look much more at home.

Rocky leaned across, looking me straight in the eyes again, I could tell by his close proximity that he was building up to another little intimate chat, but wondered what on earth it could be about this time ?

“Well” he said confidently “I guess I should get on with the point of my visit today, shouldn’t I ?”.

Oh yes, I had almost forgotten that there must have been a reason why Rocky had appeared in the room earlier, I mean its not like he came up here specifically to have a dramatic secret revealed, which would result in a fight. So I was keen to discover why he had sought me out in the first place ?

“I actually wondered if we could continue our discussion from before”.

hmmm a tad cryptic, but I am sure it would all make sense soon, in fact I should really be paying more attention to him talking, than letting my mind wander like it is now !!

He then carried on saying “you know, about the arrangements … for moving in together !”.

Oh, I was so pleased, however a little surprised, considering how we had only just had a huge fight, but I guess we had put all that behind us now, so there wasn’t really much point in it letting it stop us from moving things forward.

“My Darling, I know we said we would wait, until we could figure out where the best place was for us to live together … but … I really don’t want to wait any longer”.

I was quite shocked by how honest he was being, but then realised that’s a good thing, as I would never want to get hurt by lies in the way I had recently hurt him.

Anyway, after he paused a little to gather his thoughts he continued

“I don’t want to push you, and if you are not ready to, then please you must tell me, but I am ready now … if you are that is ?”.

My face blushed a little, and I smiled as I replied ever so sweetly “I would love to … but we still have the same problem … we don’t know where to live ?”.

Rocky chuckled and looked a tad devious as he said

“Well, you see, that’s why I wanted to talk to you Sweetheart … I know how comfortable you are up here, its like some pink girly heaven, and whilst its not quite to my taste, really is perfect for you … so I thought, why don’t I just move up here with you ?”.

I couldn’t quite believe what he had just suggested, did he really understand what that would mean ? he would be living in a room surrounded by clothes, shoes, bags and pink … could he really handle that ?

I was truly touched by his offer, but felt I had to say something, after all he had insisted that I had to be honest with him, hadn’t he.

“But what about your cars ? There’s no way to get them up here, well unless Holly brought them up for you, but then they would be stuck up here, and you’d hate that … plus what about all the pink and girlyness … its not at all you ?”

“My Dearest Darling Sweet Ella” replied Rocky, he was starting to come across slightly flirty, and I was quite enraptured as he continued “The cars will be fine where they are, I can go down and work on them every day as usual ... and as for the girly pinkness comment, well, its not so bad I guess, and why would I possibly worry about anything around me, if I have you by my side ?” …. Oooooh how sweet, he’s so adorable.

“Are you sure ?” I said, I was a little nervous that he might actually be joking with me, and didn’t want to get my hopes up too much, only to discover later that he was just teasing.

He smiled and insisted “Sweetheart, I will be happy wherever you are happy … and I know you are happy here” he then gave me an ever so sneaky grin, as he added “So I guess that settles it then !”.

I felt so very content, as I relaxed down into my Dearest Love’s arms, I rested my head on his shoulder, and only then realised, this was the most comfortable, and at home I had ever felt in this room, and that was because Rocky was sitting alongside me.

I felt a little giddy and excited about it all, as I asked him “So when are you going to move up here then ?”.

He laughed, but sounded ever so sweet as he replied “Well I don’t exactly have much stuff my Darling, mainly just what I am wearing … so how about right this minute, right here, right now ?”.

“Really ?” I answered, almost in shock, but a happy shock all the same.

“Of course” said Rocky, as he tenderly kissed my forehead and finished by adding “This is now my home, right here, by your side … from now, until forever … or at least until you get fed up with me!”

We both giggled at his funny little comment, but I knew there was no chance I was ever going to get fed up with him, never in a million years, although I highly doubt we would live that long. But still, even if we did, I would still expect to see my Rocky alongside me, making my whole world a much brighter and more wonderful place to live in.

As I lay across my special guy, I felt so safe, I began to come over a little sleepy. It had been an incredibly draining day, but despite the upset and dramas, things had ended on a much happier note than I could ever have imagined.

And so I guess, in a nutshell, that is the story of how Rocky and I finally moved in together !

As I started to drift off to sleep, I wondered what it would feel like to wake up in the arms of my Dearest Love in the morning ? … Well, I guess there’s only one way to find out, night all … Zzzzzzz …