Ella - The World According To A Disney Doll

Chapter 36 - "Little Lies" - 19th October 2012.

Things go a tad awry during a slumber party style gathering with a few of my gal-pals. Especially after the dressing up fun leads to a rather unwelcome revelation ... It seems a little lie of mine has finally come back to bite me in my little plastic butt !! ... Ooooph !! ...

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Chapter 36 - "Little Lies".

The girls came round to visit me today, we sort of decided to have a bit of an impromptu slumber party, but in truth, I just think I wanted an excuse to be a little lazy and stay in my nightdress for a bit longer.

We had lots to discuss, obviously Blanche and Jackson was a rather hot topic, including the speculation of if, or when they would finally ‘officially’ become a couple. Things must be going quite well with them, as she could not come along for the visit today, she had a scheduled ‘singing lesson’. I think we were all starting to wonder if that was actually a code for ‘date with Jackson’. But I guess, if that excuse made them feel more comfortable, then for the moment we should just go along with it. Although I do wonder if the guys will be so tactful with Jackson ? I mean we all know how sarcastic and implying Rio can be when he wants to.

I also mentioned to them about my encounter with the Hearts, just a couple of days ago. I used the family as sort of an excuse, so I could subtly pick the girls brains for their thoughts on children. They all had varying opinions and views on the pro’s and con’s of doll offspring, which in the end didn’t turn out to be much help, as I ended up almost as confused and conflicted about it as when I had started.

After a while when the conversation was starting to wind down, Jem pointed over at the little box behind me saying teasingly “Oh Ella, not MORE clothes ?”.

We all turned to see what she was looking at, and it was then I remembered “Oh yes, Holly gave them to me yesterday” I replied rather happily.

The girls knew exactly how much I loved clothes, I was always saying to them ‘You can never have too many dresses’. I don’t think any of them have quite the same kind of obsessive passion for fashion as I do, but they were still interested all the same.

Rai then piped up, asking “Well, are you going to show us ?”.

“Oh I don’t want to bore you all with more dresses” I responded a little sheepishly, there was a reason for my reluctance, which will become clear in due course.

The girls didn’t look convinced, and I could tell that they just weren’t going to let it go, so in the end had to comply with their request.

Firstly I held up the gorgeous fur trimmed winter Cinderella gown, this one was probably my favourite, as I loved how soft to the touch the collar felt. The girls seemed quite stunned by it, with Ooohs, Ahhhs, and other generally pleasing compliments.

“That will be prefect for Christmas!” said Jem, still looking ever so impressed by my new dress.

And of course she is right, it will be prefect for the festive time of year, but I honestly don’t know if I will be able to wait that long before putting it to use, I mean its so pretty, and the weather has been getting much chillier recently too … ok, so perhaps that might be a bit of a feeble excuse, but I really cant wait to give it a whirl.

The second dress wasn’t quite as stunning, but I quickly showed them that it was another Cinderella classic style gown, but this one was more silky, had no glitter thankfully, and was absent the meshy part that my original dress has.

Obviously their reaction was not quite as ecstatic as it had been to the first gown, but they thought it was nice all the same, and you all know how I love to have lots of nice clothing options at my disposal … well I have to be prepared for every eventuality don’t I.

It was after I had finished showing the dress, and was implying that’s all there was to see, when eagle eyed Rai spoke up again

“Hey, what about that white one ? … what’s that ? …. And why are you hiding it from us ?”

The girls all looked up interestedly, and laughed at the implying tone in Rai’s voice.

Damn it, I had been found out, you see this was the very reason why I had not wanted to show them the clothes in the first place.

I felt a little embarrassed as I mumbled quietly “It’s a Wedding dress”.

The girls began to giggle even more now, and many a comment was thrown around about, how soon I would be using it ? and, had Rocky popped the question yet ? ... and so on, so forth.

The thing is though, its not like I had bought it, or even asked for Holly to get it for me. It came in a fashion pack doll set that she had purchased, so I was given all the dresses in the set. But I knew how it must look, I could see that at least a few of them assumed that I was already secretly planning a wedding. And the worst part was, I knew nothing I could say would convince them otherwise, so it wasn’t really worth arguing about.

They attempted to convince me to try it on to show them, but I knew that would just make all the teasing worse, so politely declined. But Serena being, well, Serena was having none of it. She stood up and said

“Oh go on Ella … I tell you what if you put yours on, I will put mine on ... how about that ?”.

I guess that sounded a little better, but then Jem went one step further, and suggested that Rai would probably fit into the other wedding gown I already had too, you remember the one I had tried on when picking an outfit for my date with Rocky … yes, that’s the one, when I didn’t realise it was a wedding dress until Jem pointed it out !

Well, it appeared as though the decision had already been made, and perhaps a little fashion show would be fun. So off we went to get changed …

Rai and Serena were having a ball at this game, they playfully hummed the wedding march, as we appeared back from behind the changing area. We must have looked a funny sight, all standing there in silky white bridal gowns. I have to say though, the one Rai was wearing looked amazing, it really suited her, and was great that she could be included in all the fun.

Jem and Crystal were resigned to being spectators though, as not only had we now run clean out of wedding dresses, but their body shapes were rather different to us Disney dolls, so its highly unlikely they could have squeezed into any of them. But they didn’t appear to mind, and looked as though they were having nearly as much fun by watching, as we were.

It was then that Crystal asked me rather bluntly

“So, is this the one then ? … ‘the’ one you think you would wear, if or when my brother finally gets around to asking you ?” she gave me a sneaky wink as she said it.

Oh great, thanks Crystal !! … I pretty much knew they would have all been thinking it, but was hoping they wouldn’t actually ask that question. But just like Rocky, Crystal does like her little teasing games, I knew she wasn’t trying to cause distress, but that didn’t stop me from feeling a little nervous, as now all eyes were on me, awaiting my response.

“Oh errr … I guess we’ll see … if I ever have the need” I replied a touch hesitantly.

Serena then giggled declaring “Well at least you will have lots of choice from the looks of this ! … and you never know, maybe Blanche can make use of one of the others one day too !!”

Ok, so that comment I did find a little amusing. But I started to get the feeling that my girl friends were starting to be as anxious, and curious, about when Rocky was going to pop the question, as I was. Yes, well that could make life … interesting, oh well, I guess they mean well. And in truth, it is rather sweet that they are all so invested in my love life … although, it does feel more pressured with the weight of ‘their’ expectations piling on top of my own now.

Before any more teasing comments, or probing questions could be asked, we all turned upon hearing a noise … it sounded like a voice … oh, has someone come to join us ? … oh god ! I know that voice !!! …….

It was then that Rocky appeared from around the corner! He stopped in his tracks as soon as he caught sight of us, but then I’m not surprised, I mean there were three of us stood there in wedding dresses, but it must have been even more shocking for him when he saw that one of them was his own girlfriend! He looked a tad amused by our appearance, but smiled politely all the same, as he exclaimed

“Oh, what do we have here then !? … am I interrupting something important Ladies ?”.

From the look on his face, I knew he was just about start laughing … great, that’s just perfect … oh dear.

I couldn’t even manage to speak, I was so startled and embarrassed that ‘he’ was standing there, when I was dressed like this … kill me, just kill me now … oh god this was THE most embarrassing thing that could possibly have happened in this moment ! Serena and Rai were instantly aware of my distress and predicament though, and so sort of scooted round in front of me to help hide what I was wearing in a little. But there was no hiding this, I was wearing a wedding gown for god sake, what made it all the worse was the fact that I wasn’t even engaged, or getting married any time soon. I started to wish the ground would just swallow me up, so I wouldn’t have to try and explain away my current unusual attire.

As Rocky got closer I felt more and more panicked, however Crystal tried to come to my rescue saying “Is there something we can help you with Bruth?”

She was trying ever so hard not to laugh at the whole situation, and I could tell that Rocky was finding it just as amusing.

I felt so trapped in this ridiculous mess, I started to hope and pray for something, anything, to get the subject off this wedding dress. But they always say be careful what you wish for, and I was just about to find out why …

It appeared that Anthony had now decided to join us, oh wonderful, another person to witness this utter humiliation of mine. Everyone looked rather curious about his presence, and when I think about it, it was rather odd, as I am not sure he had ever been up here before. I mean, Rocky I could understand, it was pretty obvious he was looking for me, but why was Prince Prettyboy in my room ? …. And why oh why, now of all times ?

Anthony looked almost more shocked than Rocky had been, by my present state of dress, and it didn’t take him long to comment

“Ella my dear, what a simply divine gown” he said, appearing like he was rather taken by the sight of me. He then came over rather inquisitive, as he asked THE worst possible question which could ever have left his lips

“Has HE proposed to you also ?”.

Oh my god !!! … I cannot believe he just said that. For the split second I had to take it all in, my mind raced, I knew exactly what was coming next, and it wasn’t going to be pretty.

And just like that, all hell broke loose ! ….

No sooner than Anthony had finished talking, Rocky was all up in his face about the implications of his question.

“Proposed !?! … ALSO ?!!” he declared in total shock and disbelief. But he didn’t exactly give Anthony any time to answer, as he went on

“YOU … proposed … to MY girlfriend ?!!?”

Everyone just watched in shock, as up until now, no-one had known about Prince Prettyboy’s marital intentions towards me, well apart from the two of us that is. So in some ways, they were all as surprised about it as Rocky was.

Anthony didn’t appear the least bit worried by Rocky’s forceful reaction to the realisation of what he had asked me though. In fact, he also didn’t look at all sorry for his actions either, as he calmly replied

“Why, of course” like it was just a matter of fact.

Rocky turned to me looking furious, but mostly ever so wounded, as he timidly enquired

“Ella, is this true ?”.

I could see Prince Prettyboy was looking a little too pleased with himself for my liking. I started to wonder if he had done this on purpose ? I had an inkling that he was keen to drive a wedge between Rocky and I, and from the look on Rocky’s face at the moment, there was a very good chance he had finally managed it !

I didn’t really get a chance to respond, as Jem and Crystal instantly stood up to leave, they beckoned Serena and Rai to come along. I think they all knew what was about to go down, it was not going to be pretty, and the last thing Rocky and I needed was an audience to contend with on top of everything else. In a way, I was grateful to them all for trying to spare us the extra discomfort, but also felt a bit concerned at how thing might unfold once they had left ?!

Jem, Rai, and Serena gave me one last sympathetic look of encouragement and support, before Crystal told them they really had to leave. I could tell how worried they all were, Crystal especially, after all it was her own brother, and someone she considered like a sister who were involved here. I don’t think she could bare to look at Rocky and I, for fear about what was going to happen. And I must admit, things were not looking good from where I was standing either.

As I watched them leave I felt utterly alone, I had no-one left in my corner, and knew I was about to face the wrath and consequences of my lie. I felt a wave of despair wash over me, as they finally left my sight I knew everything was about to explode.

Now it was just the three of us, Rocky had not let Anthony leave, I think he wanted more of an explanation, and as he was half of the parties involved here, saw it as the quickest way to get to the bottom of things. It was a little sadly ironic that I was standing there in a wedding dress, whilst about to face an inquisition about a proposal. But I was far too worried at the time to find it funny.

Rocky stared at me intently as he said “Ella, I asked you a question … is this true ?” he sounded so disappointed in me as he spoke.

I was so ashamed of myself, I couldn’t bear to look him in the eye as I mumbled “yes” ever so quietly in return.

I could tell his demeanour was getting a little more irate, as he sighed anxiously at my reply. He was trying ever so hard to remain calm as he continued to ask “So when did all this happen then ?”

“When we came back from Disneyland” I whispered, I was starting to feel tears welling in the corners of my eyes. It took every ounce of strength I had, to fight back the urge to blubber, as I added “just after I introduced Serena, Rai and Blanche to everyone”.

Another disappointed sigh from Rocky was all the response I got.

He now appeared to turn his attention to Anthony, who up until now had been watching everything keenly, I knew he was hoping to see signs of discord between Rocky and I, and I was rather fearful of how this discussion between the two of them would go.

“And what did she reply, to this ever so inappropriate question of yours ?” Rocky pressed Anthony for a response, and I just had a feeling that he was going to find some way to come out with something which would make things even worse.

Prince Prettyboy unfortunately did not disappoint, and had a rather almost sly look on his face as he told Rocky “Well actually Ella didn’t finish giving me her response” he then grinned in a somewhat implying way, as he went on “however, we were rather ‘rudely’ interrupted by SOMEONE at the time !”.

Oh hell, he had to have a dig at Rocky didn’t he, this was not going to be good …

I watched in horror as things rapidly escalated, Rocky’s temper had now hit the boil as he began to angrily retaliate “RUDE ?? … Rude ? … I’ll tell you what’s rude, mate, and that’s any bloke who finds it remotely appropriate to propose to another man’s girlfriend”.

“A little unsure of her unwavering affection are we ?” replied Anthony, his tone was so very sarcastic and condescending as he went on “Ella deserved to know from the very beginning, that I have nothing but HONORABLE, respectable, intentions of matrimony towards her. She is an amazing girl, but perhaps, only someone with an honest motive can appreciate how she should be treated ! … I am in no way the sort of doll who would lead her on and cast her aside once I had finished amusing myself with her … I Sir, am a Gentleman !”.

Rocky’s face tightened in anger, I could see how hard he clenched his jaw as he stood there listening to Prince Prettyboy’s attacking comments. But there was no way he was going to lie there and take being talked to in that way. He tried ever so hard to compose himself but still sounded so strained as he said

“It takes more than just a fancy suit, posh voice and flimsy fake royal title to be a gentleman … Mate … and despite what you might think, I have treated Ella with nothing but respect and dignity. I am fully aware of what a wonderful doll she is, and am in a much better position than you are, to know who she is as a person … you know nothing about her … do you know her favourite colour ? What music inspires her, or films she likes to watch ? Did you realise she likes cars and can drive ? Have you even noticed the adorable way she gets tongue tied under pressure, but then when she finally finds her voice ends up jabbering on non-stop, in a sweet almost incoherent manner? Do you know how to makes her laugh when she’s feeling sad or nervous ? … Do you even know anything about HER at all as an individual, beyond the fact that she’s a beautiful Cinderella doll ?”. Rocky was now the one with the sly look on his face, as he finished off by adding “No, I didn’t think so !”.

I was so in awe of Rocky’s passionate declaration, he clearly knows me ever so well, and that was a HUGE advantage in this little game of wits they were playing. His words were quite on the ball though, I mean Anthony has never bothered to try and talk to me, or get to know me, so it was rather clear his interest in me was purely down to what I was, rather than who I am inside.

Prince Prettyboy was never going to give up THAT easily though, I think we all know that, as he politely decided to point out

“And yet despite all of that, Ella still has never actually refused the offer of my hand … maybe deep down she likes the idea of being involved with someone honest and respectable, who can give her everything she deserves and desires … perhaps she would prefer the prestige and position of status, that naturally comes from being the wife of Prince. Compared to the shame and squalor, of demeaning herself to be the unsanctified partner of a lowly mechanic, who is quite plainly, far too long in the tooth for her to begin with !”.

Ooooh that was rather harsh, I could tell instantly how Anthony’s dig had cut straight through to Rocky’s heart. But more than that, the comments were totally untrue and unfounded, I didn’t have a problem with Rocky being a mechanic, I found his car passion endearing, and it was so sweet how he helped everyone out with their vehicles, meticulously spending hours ensuring they were all up to scratch, he cared about us all so deeply, and was ensuring he did everything in his powers to keep us all safe where the cars and bike were concerned. It was in no way lowly or demeaning, and in my opinion was much more respectable that he was doing something useful with his time, compared to all the boring useless pomp and circumstance surrounding a rather dull and snobbish royal life. But does Rocky know that’s how I feel ? … that’s the big question on my mind ?

Rocky of course, could not resist responding to Anthony attacking statements, and to be honest I am not at all surprised, so far Prince Prettyboy had called him dishonest, disrespectful, lowly, and old, whilst also implying he was ungentlmanly and calling his honour into question, particularly with regards to me.

“I think you’ll find she’s with me” Rocky glared Anthony in the face intently as he spoke, they were now standing so close, the tension built, and I was getting worried where this was all heading ? My dearest then smiled so very sarcastically as he continued

“so we both know all that royal crap doesn’t mean diddly to her … and for the record Mate, I can offer her everything you can … you are a doll remember, you’re not a real Prince, you don’t live in a Castle full of servants, and you have no fortune or anything of real value to speak of. What I can offer her is REAL, not a delusion based on the fantasies of a self-important arrogant little upstart !”.

Anthony took great offence at the attack on his royal status, and things between the two of them fast became more heated, their voices were getting raised and irate as they began to throw more and more scathing insults furiously at one another. I couldn’t believe after all this time, they were STILL fighting over me ! … Was this never going to end ? From the looks of things though, they were really honestly building up to blows … I had to do something to defuse things, and quick … but what ?!

Realising that screaming at the pair of them, like I had done when they had fought like this in the past, would most likely not have had a soothing effect on everyone’s fragile tempers. I decided to try an alternative tactic, as I turned to Rocky, and gently touched his arm to get his attention, I said as softly as I could possibly manage

“Rocky … please stop”.

Both guys instantly halted in their tracks, and looked at me even more surprised than when I had yelled at them. I held Rocky’s hand slightly, also hoping to keep it as far away from Prince Prettyboy as possible. Now I finally had their undivided attention I continued saying to my Dearest Love

“Will you please, just let me handle this one ?”.

They appeared quite captivated by the ever so delicate way in which I had managed to take control of the situation, without the use of a raised voice, or any force. But I thought that a more feminine approach was what was needed here, especially seeing as it was me they were so intently fighting over, so it was about time I spoke up.

I turned to Anthony, hoping that I wouldn’t get too tongue tied, or nervous considering what I was about to tell him, but it had to be said, as he STILL obviously could not see the truth, even when it was standing in front of his own eyes.

“Anthony” I started, trying to be as ladylike and composed as possible as I addressed him “Whilst I am honoured, and thank you for the very kind compliment of the offer of your hand in marriage. I find myself unable to accept … Firstly because I really don’t know you, and its pretty clear you don’t know who I am either, and I have a feeling that I am not the sort of doll who’s funny little quirks and personality traits you would honestly be able to tolerate in you royal life. We don’t have anything in common, and would drive each other mad in time, I’m sure of it”.

I was hoping that by appealing to him in such an honest way might actually get things to sink in, as I continued “But mostly, I find myself unable to accept, because my heart belongs to someone else … it always has, and always will. Rocky is the guy I choose to be with, and I have absolutely no problem with his choice of profession. And despite what you might think I have never felt he has ever treated me with anything but the utmost respect … he is honest and a gentleman. And I am very sorry buy HE is my choice!”.

Rocky now had a HUGE gloating grin on his face as he glared over at Anthony, he seemed ever so pleased in his victory over his rival for my affections. Prince Prettyboy appeared to take the news rather well, but then he could have been hiding it. He nodded in response to imply he had heard and understood, but never uttered even a single word … had the message finally got through ?

I knew there was a LOT more that needed to be discussed about this whole thing between just Rocky and I in private, so I politely asked Anthony to leave. “Of course” he replied, I still couldn’t quite make out what he was feeling though ? Perhaps he is just far too shallow to have any real depths of feeling about anything ? Who knows ? At the time, I was just glad that he had agreed to leave my dearest and I in peace, to sort out everything else.

As Prince Prettyboy turned to go, Rocky looked him in the eyes and said ever so sternly

“I’ll see YOU later !”

God, its like it’s a physical impossibility for these two to drop this silly rivalry, although with how much they disliked one another, I am sure they would find something else to fight over even if it wasn’t me. I was suddenly remembering when Rocky had said that Crystal and I needed our heads banging together, when he thought we were being silly, but honestly that was nothing compared to way these two behaved, I think little Pammy and Petey would have been more civilised and sensible … Urrrgh, Men !!

For a moment I wondered if they were going to start everything back up again, but I was relieved to see that Anthony just smirked, and simply replied

“I look forward to it” as he finally walked away.

Rocky and I stood there in an awkward silence, as Prince Prettyboy continued on his way. I think we were both painfully aware, that was the easy part over with, as now there was going to be much more questioning and explaining to do. The atmosphere was so very tense, it felt as though there was a huge gulf between us, as we patiently waited until we were sure that Anthony had left the room before we could begin …

The first words he spoke to me were so shaming “You lied to me !”.

He sounded so hurt, and I couldn’t bear to see the look of disappointment that was written across his entire face, as he went on

“I asked you specifically at the time, what HE wanted ? … and you told me he JUST wanted to see how you were doing ?!”.

I felt so awful about the pain I had caused him, I knew I should not have lied to him at the time, but thought he would never find out, so didn’t see the harm in it, as I was convinced the truth would make things worse back then. But all it had done was make things even more bad now !!

I wanted to say something to try and explain, but every time I opened my mouth my voice never managed to appear. I must have looked like a goldfish gasping for breath.

Rocky was not at all impressed by my silence, he started to get much more irate, as he demanded

“Well ?? … do you have ‘anything’ to say for yourself ?”.

But I still couldn’t manage to get my voice to co-operate. He wasn’t at all patient though, I could see my reluctance to speak was wearing thin, as he went on

“For god sake Ella … I have put up with a lot from you, and never have I once complained or judged you. Flippin hell, even when you thought I was having an affair, you wouldn’t let me explain. Do you think it was nice for me, knowing that’s what you thought of me ? That you thought I was capable of doing something like that to you !… Oh and lets not forget the fact that when I chased after you, I found you in bloody Prince Prettyboys arms !! … did I say a word ? .. No … but how do you think that made me feel ?”.

Everything he had said was utterly true, he had always been so supportive and accepting of me, and my random flighty behaviour, but I had never once stopped to consider what he has had to endure to be with me. This was all so very horribly real, I almost wanted to run away, but I didn’t, I owed Rocky at least that.

But still he had not finished his little eye opening rant “And now I find out that HE proposed to you, and not only did you not tell me about it … but you lied to me ! ……. For god sake Ella, will you please just say something !!!”.

I knew that I could not put it off any longer, he wasn’t going to leave it alone until I had explained my rather thoughtless actions, so finally piped up, trying to sound sweet in the hope it would help re-enforce the justification for my behaviour.

“I’m sorry I lied … really I am … I wasn’t trying to hurt you, I thought I was protecting you. I didn’t want to see you get all upset over it, and end up fighting with Anthony. Obviously I was wrong, but I really did it out of love … surely that must count for something ?”.

Rocky looked at me ever so seriously as he replied “Ella, you are standing here in a Wedding dress, and I have just found out that another man had proposed to you, but you didn’t refuse him straight away, and you also kept it all a secret from me … how do you think that looks ? … Really ? … because from where I am standing, it seems rather damning to me !”.

Oh gosh, with everything going on I had almost forgotten my ridiculous attire. It was clear that my present state of dress was adding extra tension to the situation, but its not like I could just nip off and change when we were right in the middle of heated discussion.

“But I did tell him no, just now, I didn’t have a chance to before as you came along before I had finished my refusal … I thought when he saw we were back together he would have realised that it was a no! … how was I to know he hadn’t got the hint ?”.

I was nervously playing with the collar of Rocky’s shirt as I spoke to him. But I don’t think my feeble excuse had done the trick, in some ways he looked more miffed at me than ever.

It was as though he now couldn’t bear the sight of me as he looked away, I couldn’t believe how one little lie had caused all this awful pain and anguish, and most of all upset between us. But I guess, it wasn’t a little lie was it, that was the point, it was a flippin huge one. It was then that I started to worry, what if there is nothing I can say or do to make all this right again ?

He still didn’t want to look my way as he said “That still doesn’t explain WHY you never told me ? Even afterwards you could have, and should have, said something about it”.

I softly caressed his cheek as I tentatively tried to apologise once more

“I know, and I am so sorry … I wish I could go back and change things, but I cant”.

I really couldn’t stand him looking away from me in such a confused and worried manner, so I gently tried to ease his face back towards mine as I said

“Rocky, please look at me ? … My Love, I never ever seriously considered accepting him, not even for a micro-second … my heart has and always will, belong to you … so what does it matter if another guy makes an unwanted and unwelcome proposal ?”.

It was then Rocky finally turned his head towards mine again, I will never forget the look on his face, he was so deeply tormented as he responded.

“Ella, I would have most likely found it funny, after I got over the initial shock … if only you had enough faith in me to trust I could have handled it … but my Darling, YOU have made this a big deal, because you purposefully kept it from me … if I hadn’t have found out so publicly today, would you have ever told me about it ? I doubt it, and why is that ? … I will always wonder if there was a small part of you that considered it, otherwise I just don’t understand why you couldn’t just tell me about it in the beginning ? … How am I ever supposed to trust you are being honest with me in future, after this ?”.

“But Rocky …” I tried to reply, but was cut off before I could finish.

“No buts” he said, sounding rather insistent “No matter how much we love each other, If we don’t have trust between us, then we don’t have anything !”.

I couldn’t quite take in what he had just said, was he trying to break-up with me ? Had I well and truly ruined everything between us for good ? Oh my word is he leaving ? ….

He turned away and took a few steps before stopping, I was so shocked by what was happening, I couldn’t quite believe my eyes. Oh my god !!! … this is real, he’s about to leave me …

“Rocky … wait … please !!” I pleaded, feeling ever so helpless and afraid.

The emotion of everything had built up way too much though, and I couldn’t hold it in any longer, the tears just started to flow, as I sobbed uncontrollably in despair.

“p-please d-d-don’t go … I … I’m so s-sorry” I blubbed, fearing that it was all to late to be fixed though.

Rocky instantly turned to me, and sighed sympathetically at the pitiful sight before him, it was pretty apparent how distraught I had now become, I was in a right awful state. I felt as though my whole life was falling apart right before my eyes, and there was nothing I could do about it.

“Oh, come here Sweetheart!” he declared in a slightly reluctant but tender tone.

I don’t think he could bear to watch me cry any longer, and so gently took me in his arms, resting my head on his shoulder for comfort. He then sighed once more, before adding

“I’m not going anywhere … its just a fight, that’s all … come on, shhhh everything will be fine, I’m sure we’ll work it out”.

He gently rubbed my arm affectionately, and I started to feel a little less miserable when it finally sank in that he wasn’t breaking up with me after all.

I was still sniffling on his shoulder, as I said to him “I’m so sorry, I really didn’t mean to hurt you … I … I … I love you!”.

He had an almost undetectable chuckle as he replied “I know … and despite all this I still love you too!” he then let out another big sigh as we stood there quietly.

I was taken a little buy surprise when he stepped back a little, and took me by the shoulders, as he stated rather plainly

“But Sweetheart, you MUST promise me this will be the last time you ever ever lie to me about anything !?”.

It sounded like a reasonable enough request, especially considering, after what had just happened here, and how very close we had almost come to splitting up, I was certainly in no hurry to lie to him again. So I nodded my head at him a little shyly.

I don’t think that response was quite good enough for him though, as he now leant down, his face was right up against mine as he looked me straight in the eyes and sounding forceful, but still a touch playful and said

“Come on, I want to hear you say it ?”.

I knew after everything I had done I at least owed him that, so pulled myself together and told him exactly want he wanted to hear

“Yes, I promise I will never ever lie to you again !”.

“No matter what ?” he questioned, he had a slightly teasing look on his face.

“Yes, no matter what” I replied.

I could tell he was studying my face, and reactions very closely as I spoke, I think he wanted to see the truth of it in my eyes, as well as my voice, and he finally seemed satisfied when he softly said

“Thank you”.

He grinned at me again, and nuzzled my nose a little, in a sweet and playful ‘Eskimo Kiss’ sort of way. It made me giggle a bit, and for the first time in ages we were once again both smiling at each other.

I think we were both in need of a big hug after all that upset and drama, I finally started to feel safe, and realised that the worst was now behind us … blimey what a stressful day it has been, but at least now I have seen first hand, that no matter what the consequences at the time, lying never pays off in the long run, it always comes back to bite you in the behind at the most inopportune moment. It’s true what they say ‘Honesty is always the best policy’!

When I started to think about how close I had come to losing Rocky, I couldn’t stand it, I was so so sooooo grateful that he had once again forgiven me. Once more he has just proven what an amazingly patient and tolerant guy he really is … but I really need to try and behave better in future, as hearing all those home truth spelled out so blatantly in front of me earlier, gave me a rather vivid wake up call, as to how much he really has had to put up with !

Well … it wouldn’t have really felt like we had made up, unless we had kissed would it ?!

As our lips met, it felt like the deal was finally sealed on our reconciliation, and it was clear that we were both keen to move on from this whole sorry affair. I just didn’t want to move on from the kissing part just yet though, after all, it was such a relief to feel loved, wanted and cherished again, despite my obvious little personality defects, and my occasional lapse in judgement, that had started this whole problem to begin with.

Rocky was once again gazing at me with total love and affection, and my heart started to feel whole again. It was then that he gently stroked my hair, and started to play with the veil that was still suck to my head, he looked up and enquired

“So what was all ‘this’ about then ?”.

Oh lord, I had forgotten I was still dressed like a complete plonker throughout this whole mess. I reached up and grabbed the veil, finally realising that now was the time to remove it, as I shyly looked down and replied

“Oh that … yes, well … the girls wanted to do a little fashion show, and we sort of got a little carried away … yes”.

I could tell he was taking in every detail of the bridal ensemble, after all its not that often a guy see’s his girlfriend in a wedding get-up before they are even engaged is it. But he didn’t appear at all bothered by it, he looked at me full of adoration, as I fiddled about trying to untie the offending article from my hair. He then finally responded to my rather awkward explanation by simply saying in a loving tone

“I see”.

I had now removed the veil from my head, but that probably didn’t make me look any less like I was wearing a wedding gown. I felt a touch shy, and wondered what on earth he must be thinking about my unusual state of dress ?

Rocky could plainly tell how embarrassed I felt about the whole thing, so tried to ease my feelings a little as he said

“It’s a lovely dress my Darling, truly, it looks sublime on you”.

I smiled and tentatively replied “thank you”

But still was ever so distraught that he had caught me in such a way … mental note, I must be much more careful about what clothes I try on when unexpected visitors can just pop in !

There was a little awkward silence, but then Rocky suggested that we would probably feel more comfortable if we sat down, after all there was a nice little sofa sitting there right behind us.

“Oooh this is rather nice” he declared playfully, as he seated himself alongside me.

He had never tried it out before, probably because he hadn’t really visited me up here that often. But I was pleased that he appeared to like it, and as soon as he put his arm around me, he settled down and began to look much more at home.

Rocky leaned across, looking me straight in the eyes again, I could tell by his close proximity that he was building up to another little intimate chat, but wondered what on earth it could be about this time ?

“Well” he said confidently “I guess I should get on with the point of my visit today, shouldn’t I ?”.

Oh yes, I had almost forgotten that there must have been a reason why Rocky had appeared in the room earlier, I mean its not like he came up here specifically to have a dramatic secret revealed, which would result in a fight. So I was keen to discover why he had sought me out in the first place ?

“I actually wondered if we could continue our discussion from before”.

hmmm a tad cryptic, but I am sure it would all make sense soon, in fact I should really be paying more attention to him talking, than letting my mind wander like it is now !!

He then carried on saying “you know, about the arrangements … for moving in together !”.

Oh, I was so pleased, however a little surprised, considering how we had only just had a huge fight, but I guess we had put all that behind us now, so there wasn’t really much point in it letting it stop us from moving things forward.

“My Darling, I know we said we would wait, until we could figure out where the best place was for us to live together … but … I really don’t want to wait any longer”.

I was quite shocked by how honest he was being, but then realised that’s a good thing, as I would never want to get hurt by lies in the way I had recently hurt him.

Anyway, after he paused a little to gather his thoughts he continued

“I don’t want to push you, and if you are not ready to, then please you must tell me, but I am ready now … if you are that is ?”.

My face blushed a little, and I smiled as I replied ever so sweetly “I would love to … but we still have the same problem … we don’t know where to live ?”.

Rocky chuckled and looked a tad devious as he said

“Well, you see, that’s why I wanted to talk to you Sweetheart … I know how comfortable you are up here, its like some pink girly heaven, and whilst its not quite to my taste, really is perfect for you … so I thought, why don’t I just move up here with you ?”.

I couldn’t quite believe what he had just suggested, did he really understand what that would mean ? he would be living in a room surrounded by clothes, shoes, bags and pink … could he really handle that ?

I was truly touched by his offer, but felt I had to say something, after all he had insisted that I had to be honest with him, hadn’t he.

“But what about your cars ? There’s no way to get them up here, well unless Holly brought them up for you, but then they would be stuck up here, and you’d hate that … plus what about all the pink and girlyness … its not at all you ?”

“My Dearest Darling Sweet Ella” replied Rocky, he was starting to come across slightly flirty, and I was quite enraptured as he continued “The cars will be fine where they are, I can go down and work on them every day as usual ... and as for the girly pinkness comment, well, its not so bad I guess, and why would I possibly worry about anything around me, if I have you by my side ?” …. Oooooh how sweet, he’s so adorable.

“Are you sure ?” I said, I was a little nervous that he might actually be joking with me, and didn’t want to get my hopes up too much, only to discover later that he was just teasing.

He smiled and insisted “Sweetheart, I will be happy wherever you are happy … and I know you are happy here” he then gave me an ever so sneaky grin, as he added “So I guess that settles it then !”.

I felt so very content, as I relaxed down into my Dearest Love’s arms, I rested my head on his shoulder, and only then realised, this was the most comfortable, and at home I had ever felt in this room, and that was because Rocky was sitting alongside me.

I felt a little giddy and excited about it all, as I asked him “So when are you going to move up here then ?”.

He laughed, but sounded ever so sweet as he replied “Well I don’t exactly have much stuff my Darling, mainly just what I am wearing … so how about right this minute, right here, right now ?”.

“Really ?” I answered, almost in shock, but a happy shock all the same.

“Of course” said Rocky, as he tenderly kissed my forehead and finished by adding “This is now my home, right here, by your side … from now, until forever … or at least until you get fed up with me!”

We both giggled at his funny little comment, but I knew there was no chance I was ever going to get fed up with him, never in a million years, although I highly doubt we would live that long. But still, even if we did, I would still expect to see my Rocky alongside me, making my whole world a much brighter and more wonderful place to live in.

As I lay across my special guy, I felt so safe, I began to come over a little sleepy. It had been an incredibly draining day, but despite the upset and dramas, things had ended on a much happier note than I could ever have imagined.

And so I guess, in a nutshell, that is the story of how Rocky and I finally moved in together !

As I started to drift off to sleep, I wondered what it would feel like to wake up in the arms of my Dearest Love in the morning ? … Well, I guess there’s only one way to find out, night all … Zzzzzzz …